I don't even know what to say....

After reading this story on "Cousin Perez", it made me realize that I seriously can't just look at marriage as just a business contract..... If you feel the same way I do, read this and tell me you won't change your mind a lil.....

Hey Everybody!

Well, would you believe this is my 50th post?! Granted, I haven't really followed what I originally had planned on doing, which is writing something everyday but oh well! I'm at least writing!

Anyways, just thought I would throw a lil update-

- Delilah is exactly 4 months old today and she has gotten SO big! It's crazy cuz there are times we don't know if it's her or the filthy animal! She's almost done getting all her shots & once she does, I'll be able to take her to get groomed so once I do, I'll post a new pic of her.... Still damn cute & still a lil bitch!

-After having to reschedule it like 3 times, I'm finally having my procedure done this Friday! Thank god! Oh and it's nothing serious but you or I wouldn't have guessed that if you went through the registering at the hospital! Geez, you would swear I'm having open heart surgery the way they prepped me!

- In the next few months, I'll be doing quite a bit of traveling- from Vegas (duh!), New York (Seeing the last performance of "RENT" & hopefully meeting up with Mr. Walsh), to even, of all places, Biloxi, Mississippi! Yes, sometime next month I'll be going over there to support someone in a Blackjack tournament..... Should be fun! ;)


Well, that's just a lil bit about what's going on with me.... In closing, I would like to ask this of the people who do read my blog:

Say something cuz guess what? I actually know that a few of you do read it due to the analytics I have on here! =) They're some of obvious that I can tell by the city but for instance, I have some people who are from different countries reading this!

Here are some stats:

-*5 continents
-*20 countries
-*158 cities!

*(wow, that sounds so "Amazing Race"-ish!)

Of course the main place that most of the readers come from is the US yet it seems like the international readers are more interested! For instance, the longest someone has been on my blog- someone in DUBLIN, IRELAND for about 30 mins! AT ONE TIME!!! Who would have guessed?!

So yeah, there you have it! Hope all is well with all of you & can't wait to hear from you all!

Take care,

me! =)

woot, woot & WOOT!

It was a plethora of good news when I got home from work yesterday! Check it out:

1- Finally got something resolved that has been basically haunting me since 2004/2005 and now I not only don't have to worry about it but it's now as if it NEVER happened!!!!

2- Got TOTALLY hooked up in a nice ass room for next weekend in Vegas!

3- Justice was served. The fucker who attacked Mr. Brad Walsh has been FIRED!!! The distributor FINALLY did something about it and I feel now there's some hope for man kind.....

All and all, it was a good night! Even called LBS to see if she wanted to go get a bite to eat and a drink cuz I was on such a high! I almost felt as if I was manic! It was very strange... Well, all I know is that I had 3 drinks in me and I had a hella good night of sleep...

me =)

What a Wonderful World*.....

* Please note sarcasm.



I honestly can not believe the type of world we live in. What ever happened to helping others, be kind & considerate and all that good shit???

First, I read this. This made me so sad yet livid at the same time. Then, a couple days later, I read this. Ok, now I'm fuming and I've never even met the guy (hopefully that will all change in sept.!).... I just can't believe this world! Everyone is so afraid of everything! Afraid to take action, to say anything, do anything, just ANYTHING at all! It's ridiculous and I just can't stand it! People wonder what has happened to our world, well, here's the answer! NO ONE WANTS TO DO ANYTHING!!!! It's so rare to actually hear of others being there for either friends, family, even sometimes a complete stranger! Look, I'm not saying we all need to hold hands and skip together in a field of daises but damn people! Have some consideration for others around!

Then, yesterday, I read this (<-- kinda long but DEFINITELY worth the read). So, I know many of you may not know of this story but it was kinda a big deal for about a month or so here. Like everyone else, I knew the basics about this story. After reading this article, I was blown away! Who knew all this turmoil that these poor kids had already experienced in their short lives???

Alright, before I continue, I know what I'm about to say may upset some. Right now, I don't care! This is EXACTLY how I feel & think and damn it, if it was only as simple as doing what I'm about to suggest-

See, these kids had no great role model/guidance in their lives. Their folks were as fucked up as they come! It really comes down to that the parents either had them by mistake/weren't planned or REALLY didn't understand what it meant to become pregnant, have a baby & raise it PROPERLY! It's not just these parents either! I can't even begin to tell you how many I personally know that REALLY shouldn't have had kids, some family included! So, here's my proposal/suggestion to the world of science:

I know we have come far in technology & the intelligence when it comes to the human body. Now, I can be way off base yet isn't there a way to sterilize everyone & then once a couple can prove themselves by taking a test or something, as not just decent human beings but up standing citizens of the world and that have the desire & excitement to have a child of their own, then they could bear children??? It would help the U.S.'s population, let alone the world's, we wouldn't have so much over crowding in school, jobs, and traffic. There wouldn't be a concern that a child isn't getting the proper attention or needs since they'll be basically met (yet not in a spoiled way) and well, I think it would solve quite a bit more of the issues going on in our world! Those are just the ones at the top of my mind! My dad even pointed out that if the rate of breeding today that soon, we'll become like China and they'll flat out say, "You have one kid & you're done!"

Can't something, ANYTHING happen to help this world we live in???

me =(

The Dark Knight

Well, I saw it last night with my mom & LBS....

All I can truly say is that it's absolutely amazing! I was honestly sitting at the edge of my seat!

I actually had this fear that I wouldn't be able to enjoy it for the simple reason that I am honestly still a mess & shoken up by the passing of Heath Ledger. I just kept telling people that I know I'm going to be sobbing while watching the movie, just thinking about how everyone was right & gave the performance of a lifetime and that this would be our last time ever witnessing the amazing talent he was. Well, what do you know??? LBS was right! She actually saw it last night and said that it wasn't til the end where it hit her that he was gone. You get SO captured by the performance he gives that you truly do forget he's gone. And let me tell you, there were a few times that my semi-pessimistic/masochist mind wanted to remind me that, "Hey, remember, he's gone...." and before it could finish reminding me, something would come to my mind and basically bitch slap it out and say, "FUCK YOU!!! Soak it up & enjoy!" and I did.

If you haven't seen it yet, please go. You won't regret a second of it! I mean, comic book stories/movies aren't my "forte" yet this did NOT come off as a comic book! It was beautiful all around. Make up, music, scenery, script, EVERYTHING was absolutely perfect! Don't get me wrong, there were a few lil "really?" moments but there's so small and dumb, it's not even worth discussing!

Oh, just promise me that if you go, make sure BEFORE the movie starts, you check to see if they're are any idiots who have decided to bring either young children or BABIES! Yes, we had someone bring a 1 to 2 year old about 15-20 mins before the movie started and LBS & I just looked at each and I said, "I'm on my way...." So I went to customer service to inform them that I have just paid $11.50 to enjoy this movie I have been waiting for quite a while to see and I did NOT want the experience to be ruined by having to come inform someone WHILE the movie is showing to let them know some idiots thought it would be ok to bring their BABY to an 8 o'clock showing of a movie that's not only 2 1/2 hours but rated PG-13, almost R! In doing that, I not only had a security guard in there the whole time but I also had 2 employees in there as well watching and making sure there would be NO disturbance from babies to idiots! But they did try to tell me that the parents had EVERY right to bring their baby in cuz they were "giving" their child "permission" to see the movie since they were under the age of 13! You should have seen my face when they told me that. I basically said everything but the phrase, "BULLSHIT!" to them.

Take it from me, if you do that, you'll enjoy the movie that much more...

me =)

PS- And yes, the moment the end credits came on, I had to contain myself from sobbing cuz if I didn't, I would have made the BIGGEST fool out of myself!

Things I finally understand.....

First, I would like to dedicate this post to both LBS & Q. Don't worry, I get it now and I'm sorry for all I may have ever said or done to either one of you....

Well, I think this was a long time coming... Actually, let me sound ignorant- I never thought I would say the things about to say but here I go:

- When it comes to relationships, you go with the flow. Don't expect or assume things cuz guess what? Shit happens. Everything doesn't always go as plan and me, you & everyone should understand that.

- Also, in relationships, I have learned that, you know, it's about you & your significant other and that's it. There's no need to have ANYONE'S input or nose in your business! There's no need to tell EVERYONE what's going on, not even family! Unless you're being abused, there's no reason to share TONS of details. If anything, if someone asks, "How's it going?", you say what it is, "It's great.""It's good.""It's decent." But there's never a need to say every detail.

- Another thing- In observing others relationships, as shitty as it may be, it's not you in it! They're in it and they're the ones who have to go through it! Other than the exception of abuse, you'll just make the situation worse if you put your 2 cents in it.

- The main thing? Realize that when it's good, it's amazing. When it isn't, don't pout, get pissy & be a bitch. If you're with someone who is truly someone special and you know it, don't fuck it up!

Basically, if you're in a relationship that has some kind of meaning behind it, be mature about it and have a good sense of trust & honesty. Most of us are adults and are not in elementary school anymore. If you're all about the thing when we were little and being on the playground, pointing out to our friends who we were "going out" with, all "you see that guy, standing by the trash can, talking to the guy, over by the tree, under the shade? Yeah, that's my boyfriend...", well, then, good luck with that!

I know I may sound like Captain Obvious yet, as ridiculous as this sounds, I just figured out half of this stuff....

me =)

It's been over a week....

.....and I still can't get over this:







Seriously, I almost died watching this!!!! And yeah, I'm still rooting for Twitch cuz he's just the "bestest in the westest" but damn..... That Will. Huh..... Drove me CRAZY!!!!! And I'm also obsessed with the song even though it's been around for, oh, I don't know, EVER!!!



Talk about a 180 in watching this and AI! I felt I was being tortured watching AI and I'm just DYING in anticipation for this damn show every week! After tonight, I feel the show is going to be REALLY hard cuz everyone will be amazing and it'll really be hard to decide on who should go home. Actually, it'll just be hard cuz the guys are really what's making the show so damn good! The girls, who are good dancers, actually look mediocre compared to them! As ridiculous as it sounds, I already have in mind exactly what I'm going to say once Twitch either wins or gets voted off. If I only could find footage of the Finale of the "Wade Robson Project", it would make the post complete! If someone has it (HIGHLY doubt it!) or can find it, I would owe you a body part of mine if you ever needed something!!!


Oh and to end, if I ever got to dance like this with someone, I think I would say my life would be complete and I could possibly die right then and there! Yet that ain't happening until my manatee ass loses some weight so back to reality....



me =)

Which is better???

So I've been thinking about it lately....

Which is better- Living out on your own when you're not financially ready or Living at home until you are?

I have heard a few different sides. When living out on your own, you have A LOT more freedom and feel more responsible yet what about the hell with living with roommates and also knowing that the rent you're paying isn't going to anything other than just paying to live there? There's also the possibility of living "paycheck to paycheck" and not being able to save up for anything like an emergency or even important.

BUT! There's the other side... And that's where I am- Where you're living at home, saving up for a place (most likely a foreclosed condo since they'll most likely be giving them away soon) and going CRAZY with the folks! I love them, I truly do but I do feel like they still see me as 16 and not 26. Yet LBS moved out and they see her differently, mainly with a lil more respect it seems like yet I do know that LBS struggles and has had her share of roommate nightmares.

Here's another thing with me as well- I don't want to experience the "roommate" thing and I really don't want to do the "rent" thing either, hence me living at home and saving up & going slowly insane at the same time! It's the epitome of a "Catch-22" & a "Rock & a Hard Place" all at the same time. What the hell! Let's even throw in the infamous "Damn if you do, Damn if you don't" in there, too!

So I personally am choosing to lose a lil bit of my sanity at home than lose it with people I may or may not be close to in a place where we have almost no choice than to live with each other & be tolerant of one another or possibly go back with your tail between your legs to the "units". Well, there's also just killing the roommate but I don't know how that may play out so much.....

What's you opinion on the subject? Which do you choose? What stories do you have in the matter? Am I just being a stupid selfish bitch or am I making any sense what so ever???

Wow....

I just basically had the phone version of John Cusack in "Say Anything" but the hilarious and sweet version that a very good friend would do.... Yeah, it wasn't Q who did it! It was, well, the person I thought I was never going to be able to speak again- HO. It was a nice chat and HO did what HO usually does when HO calls, which is pretending that HO's some kind of telemarketer or a person who has a wrong number and has a TERRIBLE accent! Today, HO pretended to be a recruiter from Bloomingdale's.... I don't know.... If you have ever met HO, you would know that HO's a character!

Anyways, HO decided to call me and just update me in life and whatnot while I was at work today. When I finally realized that we were on the phone for about an hour, I thought I better get off just to be proper and all since I wasn't the only one in the office (and yes, I was doing work the WHOLE time!). About 30 seconds after I hung up, I saw the "unknown number" come up again on my phone. Having a good feeling it was HO again, I was planning on answering with "Yes, Bloomingdale's recruiter....." but before I could even say anything, HO was playing "our song". Well, it's actually one of his favorite songs that we used to listen & sing along to while we were driving around, bored out of our minds back, oh, 5,6,7 YEARS ago!!! This is how we would be:

HO- "I'm bored."
ME- "Me too."
HO- "What do you want to do?"
ME- "I don't know. What do you want to do?"
HO- "I don't know. Wanna come pick me up?"
ME- "Sure. Be right there."

That would be happen about 5-6 times a week! We would usually end up finding something to do, let it be going to the bar we frequented or shopping somewhere (HO loved to go to Ikea or TJMaxx/Ross, SERIOUSLY!), we always entertained each other. I even got HO to leave OC a few times when HO usually just hated leaving the city of Orange! I would drag HO with me to San Diego to visit PH or other friends I had down there. One thing we always had was music to listen to. I got HO into the kind of music I liked and HO would sometimes get me into stuff he liked yet this one song we had never heard before until LBS introduced it to us.....

Here it is--> Click here <-- BTW- VERY NSFW!!!

Yeah..... So that's "our song"! Inappropriate- yes. Disturbing- even more but that was us! I guess we're just weird... After LBS introduced that song to us, HO would LITERALLY play it EVERY time we got in the car!

Now if I hear that song (which is VERY seldom and random now!), I always think of HO and all the lil adventures we would have! When HO played it today, it really brought a smile on my face, a real genuine smile that I haven't had in a while.

I know HO doesn't read this but if so, thanks HO. What you did today really made me feel good and granted we're both bummed cuz we can't jump in the Odyssey anymore and drive around like we used when we were bored, we at least have those memories to think about and treasure.

<3,
me =)

50 questions

I am SUPER bored at work and I'm over getting hang nails and paper & staple cuts from scanning so I decided to do this since someone posted it as a Bulletin on Myspace... Thanks Captain!

Here we go:


1) Do you like blue cheese?
And no.

2) Have you ever smoked heroin?
Once again, no.

3) Do you own guns?
Geez, a HELL no! But I will say that about 2 months ago, when my mom was in Arkansas (don't ask!) I came home from work to find the side door open and the front door locked when it's usually the other way around.... I was freaked out so I went to a neighbor's house to see if they would check out the house with me and he was like, "oh sure, just hold on while I go get my gun." Well, now I was walking through my house with a guy I HARDLY knew with a gun in his hand to see if someone was inside my house!!! For about 3.5 seconds, I thought that there actually may be some good with owning a gun if it was properly put away and whatnot. Then it hit me that there was a gun about 2 feet away from me and I said to myself, "never mind!"

4) What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
Eww.... no.

5) Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
You know, I don't yet I guess I have what's called "white coat phobia" where my blood pressure goes up if it's a new Dr. or if I'm anxious.... I don't know, I like going to the Dr. though.....

6) What do you think of hot dogs?
Only Hebrew National.... yum. =)

7) Favorite Christmas song?
OH! "Up on the rooftop"! We sang that in Kindergarten in the Christmas Program. I remember really liking it.....

8) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Water

9) Can you do push ups?
Yes

10) Can you do a chin up?
Not yet.... My manatee ass needs to lose some more weight

11) What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
The lil diamond earrings that my mom's mom gave to my mom about 30 years ago. They were suppose to be for LBS since that's her birth stone but I 1- she loses earrings like no body's business (sorry LBS but ya know it's true!) and 2- I've been wearing them since Jr. prom (circa 1999!) and I have taken them out MAYBE 3-5 times since!

12) Favorite hobby?
Other than watching TV, I would say dancing. I dance when no one's looking or in my room.... I need to go back to dance class...... =(

13) Ever been in a car wreck?
Ugh, yes.

14) Do you have A.D.D.
No but I do believe I have OCD and Dylexsia, hardcore!

15) What's one trait that you hate about yourself?
That I'm not adventurous when it comes to trying certain foods.....

16)What is your middle name?
Mercedes..... And yes, it's because my dad always wanted a Mercedes Benz so I'm his "Mercedes"

17) Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?
1- Wanting to see him, like NOW!
2- Wanting to go home
3- What ever happened to Rachel Garko???

18) Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
1- My usual Starbucks breakfast sandwich (they're discontinuing them in Sept. so help me god, I'm having one EVERY day until they're gone! BUT! I have also lost about 20-ish lbs. while still eating them so WOOT!)

I think that's all I bought yesterday...

But I did buy the most AMAZING dress at the "Fat Chola Store" a few days ago for $33! It's fantastic!

19) Name 3 things you usually drink?
1-Water
2-Sobe Lean Cranberry & Grapefruit
3-Water

20) Current worry?
My sanity

21) Current hate right now?
Not seeing him

23) How did you bring in the New Year?
Boring. Been like that for the past few years.... Not the best, especially if you're birthday IS New Year's!!! (Yeah, that's right.)

24) Where would you like to go?
Anywhere at this point! I'll be in NY in about 2 months though....

25) Name three people who might complete this?
NO idea!

26) Do you own slippers?
I think I did then Delilah found them and god knows where they are now! At least she actually found a pair of flip flops for me! Thought I was going to have to go by some $2.50 ones at Old Navy...

27) What shirt are you wearing?
One of the many black shirts I own.... This one has a kinda belt buckle on it..... All I wear is black.

28) Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
Never have and don't know how I would feel sleeping in them.....

29) Can you whistle?
Yes and no. Yes cuz noise comes out of my mouth yet instead of blowing out, I suck in..... I know, I'm odd.

30) Favorite color?
Um, black?

31) Would you be a pirate?
Maybe....

32) What songs do you sing in the shower?
LOL I don't really sing in the shower.... I actually dance in the shower! But if I do, it's whatever song is possibly in my head

33) Favorite girl's name?
I would have to say either Delilah (since that is what I call the lil brat that I have right now!) or Samantha (or Sam) cuz that's what my uncle Rudy has called me ever since I was a baby... Why? We don't know....

34) Favorite boy's name?
I actually like the name "Bert". Just Bert. There's probably others but Bert comes to mind.

35) What's in your pocket?
Well nothing since I don't have any pockets today!

36) Last thing that made you laugh?
Listening to some Kevin & Bean clips during my lunch hour

37)Best bed sheet when you were little?
DUDE! The Garfield ones we used to have! God knows where they are now but you remember them, LBS!!??! They were AWESOME! I would used them right now if I knew where they were..... Boo.

38) Worst injury you've ever had?
Either a sprained knee from sliding into a "rock crater" at softball practice in 6th grade or a sprained hand when we went to Rosarito, MEX about a few years ago.... We had just finished singing Happy Birthday to someone and then one of the cell phones started ringing (which had NOT all weekend long!). When we were running to answer it, my hand slammed into the door frame.... My hand was literally a rainbow of colors for about 2 weeks!

There was also the time when I got cellulitis....... Talk about GOOD TIMES!!!

39) Do you love where you live?
Eh. Could be better but could be a HELL of a lot worst!

40) How many TVs do you have in your house?
6.... Damn.

41) Who is your loudest friend?
Huh.... Well, I think I would be any of my friend's loudest friend yet I'm going to have to say LBS..... Yes, she's my sister but I don't have very loud friends......

42) How many dogs do you have?
Now 2.... Maybe 3 if my CAM decides they want to get rid of Milo!

43) Does someone have a crush on you?
Hmmmm.... =)

45) What is your favorite book?
Not a big book reader yet I was digging on the Hardcover copy of "Mommie Dearest" that I found at my grandma's house a long time ago....

46) What is your favorite candy?
Reeses peanut butter cups, Snickers or Milky Ways..... But I'm not too into candy these days....

47) Favorite Sports Team?
Don't really have one now but back in the day, you wouldn't have met a bigger Atlanta Braves than me!

48) What song do you want played at your funeral?
As bad as it sounds, I have always thought of the music to play at OTHER people's funerals but for mine.... Geez, don't know.... Off the top of my head, I'll say "Finale B" from RENT.... It's amazing. =)

49) What were you doing 12 AM last night?
Getting into bed and trying to go to sleep.....

50) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
That I didn't want to get up from bed..... Then I got an awesome phone call AND text and well, it woke me RIGHT up! =)